Well I'm pretty sure I haven't mentioned it but for the record, "Go-see" has been ghosted. Although he was technically the first to say the words: "This is not working," out-loud, which means he "dump" me, I didn't by any means try to get him to change his mind. So I'd say it was mutual, he just beat me to the finish line...this is one time I do not have a problem having come in last place. Hell it might have been the best thing because I'm sure he feel really good about the whole thing and it played into his control issues. Which may not have been the case if I was the one to say it first, and he felt I had dumped him. Either way the main thing is - he's gone! Sidenote: I think the experience taught me that if I come across someone more that 5 years older than me....they can only be a friend...(lol a few extra benefits might be included, if the person is really sexy, but not dating material.)
Prince Esquire and I had a conversation while I was taking a break from playing with my mom on her new Wii. He raised the question, if maybe I have a commitment issue or lack faith in relationships due to the idea that I keep finding myself involved with men that aren't right for me but specificaly refering to guys who aren't local to me. Of course this question spun off the fact that I had just mentioned my newest gentleman suitor, Mateo. (named thusly because of where he lives - San Mateo, CA. ...Atleast he is in the same state "irreguardless" (LMAO) of the fact that he is still a 6 hour drive away.)
I honestly do not think he's right. However hypothetically speaking if he is right...... my love life and I are doomed. How can someone reprogram/unconditions oneself from that??????
Sincerely,
Pharaoh
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