Seriously?

Self,

So why have I been contacted by yet another person from my past? This dude is FINE as hell...body, good looks, Phat ass....juciy....well you know. Whew!

However, I haven't heard from him since 2009. And like Nakki, I think he contacted me because he doesn't remember my profile (although it has not changed, much) on the site we were on initially, however he is using a new profile.

Honestly I don't know what to do with this...part of me just wants to brush him off like he did me back then, particularly since things with KB are going well. However, I be lying if I said I wasn't tempted to find out why he contacted me and if he remembers me.

Sincerely,

Pharoah

Empires!

Self,

Speaking of music, I have to share this. I'm posting this because I just recently heard that this artist passed away a couple of years ago. The artist's name is Lamya and her CD is titled, "Learning From Falling." I love the CD, I'm still playing it in my stereo in my room. I was very disappointed to hear that this lady had died. I was constantly playing this cd as I patiently waited for a new release and now I understand why there hasn't and won't be a new release from her.

This is the video for the most successful single on the disc...



OK, she is HELLA sexy in this video. I LOVE the way she swings her hips as she beats the drums...HMMM. And then when she bucks her hips as she twirl the drumsticks over her head! OMG!

Yes, I am 99.99999999999999999999% strictly dickly...BUT SHE COULD GET IT....well could have got it. =(

Sincerely,
Pharoah
PS I just thought about it...I hope my admiration didn't come off as disrespectful, that was not the intent!

My Tuesday Night

Self,

So last night I saw the movie Priest. I wasn't estatic about seeing it...I could have waited til DVD. However I was ready for an evening out...and that'x where I ended up.

I ended up seeing the movie Priest because a friend and I had planned to see live performance from
Vivian Green

And Eric Roberson

I mean we went to dinner and arrived at the convert venue to find it pitch black and empty. On the box office window was a sign that said the show was cancelled. So we went to the nearest movie theatre and bought tickets for show that was playing next that neither of us had already seen....hence Priest.



Sincerely,
Pharoah

On The Radio

Self,

Ok I been hearing this song on the radio by Enemim.  I'm not sure of the name of the song, but part of the chorus is "I Need a Doctor" and Dr. Dre does a guestspot appereance for a verse.

Now understand that the radio is only on as background noise so I haven't heard all the lyrics. However what....caught my ear made me raise an eyebrow.  It sounds like Enemim is apologizing to Dr. Dre, speaks about how much Dre means to him, how supportive Dre has been....I mean it made me think there was a lovers' quarrel going on between them.  Hmm that would be interesting.

The other song that I've heard that made me raise an eyebrow was been Rihanna's "S & M."  I love the chorus:

I may be bad, but I perfectly good at it
Sex in the air, I don't care cause I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones may break my bones
but chains and whips excite me

When I got over how hot I thought that was I made me think about her situation with Chris Brown.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to say she deserved the beating and I do not support domestic violence in any form.  What I am saying is maybe she wasn't as innocent in the situation as we all were led to believe....maybe the incident was the result of a love game between them that was taken to the extreme. 
Again I ain't saying it was right...but i would have rather that had been said so things could have stayed in perspective.

Then again, maybe "S & M" is just a song her record label gave her cause they knew that it would be a hit for her.

Sincerely,
Pharoah

BabyBro's Woes

Self,

Well the other day I got "hate" text from BabyBro.  I was surprised and obviously a bit hurt...and that hurt only grew when he didn't respond back to my inquiry about the "hate" message.

We've sinced talked and got a few things cleared up....and hopefully we won't run into any more snags. 

So I guess between all the things that I have going on and that there been a gap in communication between us...BabyBro had become kind of jealous and seriously considered the idea that he had actually been replaced. 

Well I was more hurt by that then the hate texts!  We had a serious heart to heart about it, he explained that the hate text was really the result of a overall crappy day and that the feeling of being replaced and lack of communication was just icing on the cake of which I bore the full force.

He felt a little better when I told him he had nothing to worry about because I had not even heard from his potential replacement, Neo, in over a week since.  More importantly I believe I effectively relayed the fact that I could never really replace him...no matter how many other potential baby brothers come in to my life....he is first and foremost of my lil brothers...aside from the biological one with whom I grew up.  For that reason I'm altering his nickname to BabyBro-Prime   Hopefully it will serve as a reminder to him the significance and depth of the bond we continue to build with each other.

Sincerely,
Pharoah

PS Love you BabyBro-Prime

People.

Self,

OK so why is it that if you begin to show signs of being in a state...slightly above average, someone tries to say something to bring you down?

So just to set the stage; KB and I agreed on plans to hang out on Saturday.  I was going to leave my weekly Saturday training session to go to his place in Reseda.  We would hang out most of the day, maybe catch a movie then he was going to accompany me to a birthday party for one of my book club members that evening and I would stay the night at his place after the party.  Really simple right?

Well I overslept Saturday morning and didn't go to my weekly training session on Saturday morning.  Although I could have just planned to meet KB as scheduled, I talked to another friend, "Em" who wanted me to go to some school carnival to hear a friend of his sing. So we go and afterwards instead of just dropping him back off and going to KB's place, I hang out with Em for a while.  Eventually, Em asks about my plans for the rest of the evening.  I tell him about going to the party with KB since now that is all I would have time for since I gave up a chunk of the afternoon spending it with Em (although he didn't know that part because I don't try to make people feel guilty or that they inconvienced me because I decided to spend time with them.)  So I thought that telling Em about KB would be okay because I figured that as my friend he would at least be slightly as supportive as have some of the few other friends I've told about KB.

His response:

"It must be some good dick to go all the way to Reseda.  I mean, there's plenty of dick you passing up between here and there."

I really didn't have any words....well no, that's not entirely true. I thought about how Em has express dissatisfaction about how it seems that "the gay life" is only about going to the clubs and chasing dick/ass, and how he thinks life has to be better than that...there has to be more to it.  So I was disturbed and disgusted.  He should know me well enough to know that if I was only interested in sex then I would not be spending the time and energy to go to Reseda for it. That would mean that my interests in KB lies elsewhere.  However, I decided it wasn't worth the effort to call Em on that bull shit and just kept my mouth closed.  We hung out a bit more while having a bite to eat, then I bounce and had a great time with KB.

Sincerely,
Pharaoh

PS the irony is that as I'm writing this post it dawns on me that Em may have already knew about KB from reading my posts about him, but may not have know about the specific plans for that day. Which makes him "throwing salt/shade" about it then a bit more malicious than I originally thought back when he said it.

Confessions and Round 2

Self,

Ok there's a couple things I left out when I relayed the accounts of the "Starting Five" in my last post, "From Famine to Feast."
The first thing is in regards to Neo. As I said Neo invited me over to the house he lives in with his grandfather.  Neo's invite included breakfast, he made french toast, bacon, sauge, eggs and rice. (I didn't get the rice thing either but hey I wasn't going to complain...much.)  We sat there watched some TV and chatting.  So the graveyard shift started to get to me, so I stretched out and before I know it Neo and I were cuddling.  The cuddling eventually led to us ....well seducing each other to having an intimate moment.
The other thing I had left out is that KB and I talked every night that week leading up to our date.  And after our date it got late so I spent the night at his place which led to KB and I also fooling around sexually.

So this past week/weekend I had second encounters with two of the "Starting Five."  First with Cee and then with KB.

The irony is that the encounters with Neo and KB released more of my sexual nature that I usually keep under wrap.  So it isn't too surprising that my second visit with Ceeinvolved meeting at his place in Glendale one night last week before I went to work.  We talked for a bit but eventually got naked and teased and groped each other until I had to go to work.  The surprised to me is that I felt/feel a little guilty about doing so although technically I have no reason to feel that way.

The Friday morning of my last turn on graveyard, I got off work at 8am and met up with KB at his place in the Valley to spend the weekend with him.  That morning after I arrived we had breakfast and then went to sleep cuddling in his bed.  After we woke up, we went to dinner at Ruth Chris Steakhouse with his best friend and her girlfriend who were in town from ATL.  After dinner the four of us went to see Prince who is doing 21 performances at the Forum. Prince was great, I think I may go again since the tickets are only $25. On Saturday, KB and I met his best friend and her girlfriend at the 3rd Street Promenade in Santa Monica where we had brunch and saw the new movie "Jumping the Broom."  KB's friend was in LA for her birthday and she throw herself a party Saturday night at this Italian restaurant in Long Beach.  The party was simple and I think secretly it's main purpose was for the birthday girl to introduce her girlfriend to her LA family and friends.  However it was her 35th birthday and we had fun.  After the party KB and I went back to his place and crashed.  The next morning we awoke, he was meeting his mom for brunch in The Marina and I eventually went home and cooked for my mom, my aunt, and grandmother for Mother's Day.....which my brother, my dad and I also enjoyed.

So this morning almost as soon as I got to work KB sent me a text (we are still basically talking everyday.)  The text KB sent read;

Just woke up...turned over and realized YOU weren't next to me...GOOD MORNING..have a great Sexy!! Day...smile!

He is earning some points!  We're planning to see "Thor" on Wednesday...and I may crash at his place since he lives closer to the office I'm working at for two weeks.

Sincerely,
Pharoah

From Famine to Feast

Self,

So I doubt that anyone besides myself have noticed that I've had an extended period of inactivity in regards to dating.  LOL and maybe nobody else cares rather there's some activity or not in that department....but I do!

Well after said dating drought, I now seem to have developed a few potentials, almost a "start 5 Line-up," if you will.

I don't want to quite "rank" them if for no other reason than you never know what the future holds and I don't want place too high of expectations on any one situation...where I'm ultimately "putting the cart before the horse."

That said I guess I'll identify them in order of appearances, meaning when I met them.

1) Gee. This is just a spelling out the initial of his first name. He's 39, recently relocated to Los Angeles from Charolette, NC.  The phone conversation had been cool the few times we talked during the week leading up to our meeting.  The meeting was simple. He's staying with his best friend and the friend's lover, on a air mattress. So I went by one night and we sat on the sofa and talked a bit.  I don't know if it was just late or what but he wasn't quite as engaging as he had been on the phone.

2) This one I'm nicknaming "Neo" here because he has the same last name as Keanu Reeve's character in The Matrix movie.  Neo is 23, and just a sweetheart...there is something that I find just adorable about him.  Yes I am fond of him, but I think ultimately I see it developing into a big brother/little brother type friendship like I have with "BabyBro."  LOL Which means BabyBro may be bumped out of that positions since he won't be the "baby" of my adopted/extended siblings at that point any more. (Sorry!)  Anyway Neo lives in his grandfather's house. We met there one day when I got off of work while Neo's grandfather was out of town looking hat houses down in the South.

3) Cee.  Again I'm just spelling out the initial of his first name.  Cee is 24.  (I know just barely a step up from Neo.) Although Cee is only 24, he does give a little more "grown man" vibe that is ...well rather sexy.  However again I think it will ultimately be another brother type bond....that of course is assuming that he's open to that. Cee I think lives on his on his own, in Glendale not too far from where I use to live.  We met at a Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf around the corner from his place one night.

4) KB. I am again just using initials, to keep it simple. KB is 35. We actually had like a real date.  Granted it was just dinner and a movie, but we had fun and we already have plans for this coming weekend.  KB lives in Reseda...which is NOT around the corner...but for now it also is NOT a deal breaker at this point.  We went to dinner at this place on the LA border of Beverly Hills and near West Hollywood. it was cute little café that served crepes.  It was good but initially not totally filling as I would have liked, but after a while I also didn't want anything else...so I guess it worked. We went to see the new Fast & Furious movie called, "Fast Five."  We both enjoyed the movie and as I said the over all evening went well.

5) OK so really there isn't an actually #5 in this starting five line up....I'll leave the space open...because as I said you don't know what the future holds.  There was someone who potentially filled this spot but he pissed me off before we had a chance to meet because he felt I was inattentive and there for a flake during the days that I was out of town and the days of the funeral for my grandfather the immediately followed my return to Los Angeles.  His approach with that was way to disrespectful and stank for my taste and I told him so.  Then I told him to loose my number.

Although the number 5 slot is still open, honestly, I don't think I'll be accepting any more applications.

Sincerely,
Pharoah

Twitter, bin Laden, Mendenhall, and Facebook - Oh My!

Self,

So I went to log into AOL and say a teaser about what an athlete had to say about Osama bin Laden on twitter.  Out of curiousity I clicked the link.

In short the article touched on how athletes in this case in particularly, Rashard Mendenhall of the Steelers, need to be careful about what they say in public (or in this case social networking sites) and how technology has advance beyond or protocals and (maybe in some cases common sense.)

Here is the article: Mendenhall

I'm quoting from the article that Mendenhall tweeted:

“What kind of person celebrates death? It’s amazing how people can HATE a man they have never even heard speak. We’ve only heard one side.”

The article talks about the backlash he got for that, how the Steeler's owner had to cover himself and the franchise's ass....blah blah blah.

I got to the end of the article and the first comment called Mendenhall a "dumb jock" and a lot of the following comments chimed in that sentiment or spoke his right to freedom of speech rather individuals agree with him or not. 

Well I was frankly a little pissed off, because I understand what the man was trying to suggest with is comment.  So I started to write a comment of my own to come to his defense (not because I'm a big fan....I had never heard of him until I read the article,) but because people are just soooo stupid.

So this was the comment I wrote;

Why does Mendenhall have to be dumb just because he's an athlete?  If some of you all were as smart as you thought you were, then you would have been intelligent enough to deduce what he was trying to say (and see he might actually be smarter than yourselves.) Basically I would guess that he's a government conspiracy theorist.  And that his comment suggest that MAYBE the events of 9/11 had some assistance from the President of that day.  (I mean, it is a little far fetch to think it was just a coincidence that after 9 months in office while the public was disputing his "victory" in the election that a national tragedy occured and all disagreements went silent? Oops, that might be too much for some of you all to grasps.)  Mendenhall's real mistake was not fully articulating his thought which left it open to the asinine interpretations of the imbeciles within the general public and media...and their negative feedback.

So I hit the "Leave comment" button and a new window opens up that says to "Log into Facebook" to leave a comment.

Damn, the devil thwarts me again.  LOL.  I am half tempted to create a Facebook account just to be able to refute the idiots that are on it.

Sincerely,
Pharoah

Gotta Speak On It, Again!

Self,

So I finally had a chance to speak to my friend, Jamal Story about the pledge drive he is doing for his stage production The Soul in My Purse, which cleared up a few things for me that I feel should be shared.

1) The first and foremost is that no matter what if the drive doesn't reach its goal, the project WILL NOT RECEIVE ANY of the funds pledged.

2) The site basically forced him to set up those pledge categories, but people are able to make pledges in any denomination they like, rather it is listed or not.  So even though there isn't a $40 pledge category, it is acceptable.  As he put it, he would hate for people to feel left out if they want to help but may not have $50 but are willing and able to give $10.  IT ALL ADDS UP!  1000 pledges of $10 is the same as 2000 pledges of $5 and that is the same as 5000 pledges of $2.

Like Nike....Just Do IT!

Sincerely,
Pharoah