Self,
Well I have noticed that the time between posts have increase a little more than I would like. I have been busy trying to get my new career going, as well as working on the old til the new one is totally self-sufficient.
Although my cousin and her family are coming to town due to a funeral, I am looking forward to see them this weekend.
The only minor castophe of my life is my health. I am diabetic. I was diagnosed years ago. I had stopped (on my own) taking my medication due to several factors most of which was it was having adverse effects - it was making me hypoglycemic (another condition and almost the polar opposite of being diabetic, and whenI stopped everything was fine.)
Well curiousity got the best of me (and the need for updated medical records.) So I wanted to double check that everything was fine. I recently went to see a new doctor to have my sugar leveled checked (the change in doctors was also a factor in discontinuing my meds.) Of course, he reported that everything was horrible. Well not horrible because my levels were better than they were when I was first diagnosed, but unfortunately higher than "normal" which was his "definition" of horrible. I was prescribed to give myself a daily Insulin injection in addition to revamping the oral pill medication I was previously given. NOT CUTE! The first time I gave myself the shot was the hardest. Now it ain't easy but I'm dealing with it.
I believe when he prescribed the insulin that I didn't need the shots. Like I said my levels were way less than they were when I was first diagnosed and my original doctor only prescribed the oral meds and we got things back to "normal." Bogus as I believed this info to be I still heard him out. He said that we were going to try the injections for six months. When I asked if it was just for the six months, his response was "six months or the rest of your life, we have to see." THAT'S JUST WRONG! There's no hope in that, now is there? He insisted that I needed the insulin to give my body (specificly my pancreas) a break. He asked if I was going to adhere to the program. I said yes, (for now.)
I'm no doctor (obviously) but I ain't stupid either....in fact I'd say I'm smarter than the average bear. All that to say that I think this precription is in part a ploy of medical conspiricy. Just like a daily cigarette or glass of alcohol, if I give myself an injection every day for six months, my body will become dependant and addicted to that shot and once the body gets to that point it is going to want/need that injection on a regular basis, and I'll have to give myself that shot for the rest of my life. Meanwhile the medical industry will be collecting revenue for the purchase of the medication and supplies....can you say ChaChing??!?! I'm willing to give the benefit of the doubt in so much as I will wait to see how willing the doctor is to then ween my body off the insulin shots once we get things in a acceptable range. If that happens then I'll eat crow about the shots being a conspiracy, but remember the medical industry is still a business, otherwise it wouldn't cost SO DAMN much or better yet would be free all together.
Anyway, I'm giving myself some hope. My goal is that I will be off the insulin in 3 months. In just a week of taking the shots I've figured out (for lack of a better phrase) how to beat the system. Don't get me wrong, the key isn't a secret, in fact it's something that I already knew and most do too.
I need to eat better and excercise more. Duh, right?
Actually I don't think I need to change my eating habits much. I've noticed that I have let desserts and sodas slip back into my diet more frequently - I have to cut this out. Believe it or not the biggest revelation to me is that I also have to make sure that I simply eat dinner earlier than I usually do in order to produce the results I think will be necessary to convince the doctor to take me off the insulin. Combine that with excercise (that's the hardest part,) I shouldn't have a problem getting off the meds. I went to the gym once this week (WHEW!) but the effects were enough to give me reason to believe that my goal is achievable. So the gym membership that Schehimazade and Jewel conspired to get me a few months back is going to come in handy (for more info read this.) Dammit I hated it when friends can trump my ace! Those evil bastards!
Earlier this month I heard a quote while I was attending the annual convention for the company of my new career.
The quote was: "Decision making is over-rated, while decision management is under-rated."
Now it simple to understand what it means. but my take is that we place a lot of importance on making a decision, but not enough on maintaining the decision and the consequences of those decisions. The gym and diet are decisions that I will manage.
Sincerely,
Pharaoh
OH in other news, by my count this is my 100th "Note to Self!"
4 comments:
My mother, father, and oldest sister [who's 15 years and like 7 days younger than my mom -random fact-] are all diabetic. My oldest sister and my mother both have to give themselves insulin shots. While my father..i honestly don't know. I know my mom checks his sugar regularly, but I never see her give him any insulin shots. I'm pretty sure one of the many pills he has to take is for his diabetes. [he is a diabetic on top of like a million other things, because he has smoked and drank pretty much since he hit puberty]
...i've so lost my train of thought and I have no idea where I was going with that upper part of this comment [which is why i shouldn't text and comment at the same time lol]
anywhoo, I hope you meet the goals you've set for yourself. Oh and good luck with your new career you have in the works. =]
my grandfather and mother are both diabetic, so I know how you feel...I am trying to keep myself out of that bracket as well...
OMG Pharoah! I didn't know that you were giving yourself daily shots now, shit! My dad is diabetic (he was diagnosed at 40) and I thought the idea of sticking yourself with a lancet to check your blood sugar was scary. I can't imagine actually having to give myself shots every day. I'd pass out. You are a soldier!
I wish you all the best with your medical dilemma. For your sake (and mine), I would want you to get a third (and maybe a fourth) opinion. It can't be good for any of your vital organs to be switching medications like that. Pills, shots, liquid, whatever - they all have some sort of effect on your system.
While eating well and exercising regularly are necessary for everyone's health, very few of us can actually seem to get these right all of the time. Let me know what I can do to support you in your efforts. I need you to be around for a long time to listen to my sob stories and tell me how stupid I am.
Take care of yourself, but don't stress about it so much that you give yourself a coronary. I believe that part of my dad's trouble was also related to lots of stress...long hours working without sleep.
In the end, it is your body. You know it better than anyone else. But don't discount the advice of medical professionals completely...they didn't go through all that edumacation for nothing.
this is just the universe's way of getting you back on track. I witnessed the first go round and you ate a lot better and cut out the sugar. we all need a little reminder from time to time, it helps with the backsliding ;-)
cover all your basis and check with those that now best,(doctors included). While I agree that its a hustle it doesn't mean that they're hustling you. You got your act together now keep it straight and Im sure you'll be off the meds soon.
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