It's Not About You! LMAO! - Part 2

Self,
Yeah I couldn't resist doing that for some reason...I'm still laughing actually!

Ok for real.

NY-Suitor is doing well.
Yes we still talk, when he's not consumed with "Sun-Rise" but we text pretty regularly.

"Sun-Rise" is the name I've given the person he is dating in New York. This is actually the second person (that he's told me about) that he's dated since he and I first met.)
I gave this guy the name Sun-Rise because one day NY-Suitor after just "bitching" about the fact that he had been dragged to the beach by this guy, sent me a two-part flowery text that the jest of it went:

"HE is Awesome. HE strong enough to take away my tears, call me on my shit and sensitive enough to recognize my moods and handle them."

Or something like that...unfortunately my phone deleted the text due to lack of memory. However I told NY-Suitor that anyone with that type of "reference" must be someone whom the sun Rises and sets upon for you....well that what I told him a few days later when we talked about it.

Initially when I got that message I was shocked for two reasons. One reason is because I felt/saw/recognized the love inherent in that statement, and was happy that NYSuitor was having a moment that was vulnerable enough to let it show. Ironically a couple days later (if not the very next day) he told me that he and Sun-Rise had exchanged "I Love You's" for the first time, that night. (Damn, I'm good huh! Yes, that's not a question, just a statement of fact.)

The other reason...is that in that moment it occurred to me that in all my years to my recollection nobody I've dated has ever referred to me in such a way. Yes, family and friends have made statements of praise, love, encouragement, support and affection in my honor and by NO means am I in any way shape or form trying to demean those sentiments. Yet, ....It's still different. However, I'm not that vain, "it's not about you: Pharaoh!"

I'm very happy that NY-Suitor has found someone special in his life. I kinda feel I had a bit to do with it. (Rather he'll admit it or not.) When we first started talking, he told me that basically he didn't really date because his guard was always up and he couldn't get close to people (correction: He wouldn't let anyone close to him.) I told him that he isn't going to get anywhere if he doesn't atleast start trying to open up to people. Of course as the Martyr that I am...I told him that on one hand I'm a good person to start trying to let the walls down with due to the fact that the distance made me safe. I also told him I'm also the worse person to try it with because I am so far a way that it will be frustrating if things really got serious. Suffice it to say, his walls cracked, crumbled some and fell enough out of the way, so that he opened up a bit to the first guy he was dating and have now virtually created flood gates that are pouring over Sun-Rise. (Damn, I'm good, huh! Again, not a question, but a statement of fact.)

SO, with a glass raised high:

- Here's to Love first and foremost!

- Here's to NY-Suitor and Sun-Rise, May all your "Today's" together be joyful and all your "Tomorrow's" hold the same promises of today!


(Damn I'm good, huh! Yeah, you know.......)

Sincerely,
Pharaoh