Madness...Yours or Mine?

Self,

Not too long ago I was contacted by someone who decided a while back that I wasn't worthy of being his friend.    This wasn't the first time this has happened.  In fact over the years since he and I first met I want to say it has happened about 4 or 5 times. 

Now granted  it's not that simple, we were sexually involved off and on durring some of that time and he admitted to being in love with me...despite it not being exactly reciprocated. (Meaning - yes I loved him and our friendship...but I was not in love with him.)  He as some other emotional/mental issues...which places him in a space of instability.

The last time he reached out to rekindle our friendship I told him that it was the last time.  If I mean anything to him as a friend then there's no reason to dismiss me as such and if there was a reason to do so then it it will probably be severe enough to make it a decision that's irrevocable....cause the friendship either has to matter enough to figure out and work through whatever is the issue or its doesn't matter at all and there's no need to bother again.

So when he sent a long series of text messages to end the friendship...I was like "cool...I'm done."  And for the most part I have not thought of him until he recently sent me a text saying "What's up, [Pharoah]?"

Well I was a tad annoyed by the intrusion in my life after several months, but it also felt good to know that in that moment whatever reasons he thought he had from ending the friendship were bullsh*t (which I already knew) because here he was reaching out and I knew he would be the first to do so.

I was in the mind to ignore his text and not respond...and Schehimazade said I should ignore it.  However, I did respond and in my annoyed state of mind my text was; "Is someone ill, dying or deceased?"  I know...that was mean.  My thought was that he would probably say say "no" and THEN I would just not respond any further.

Of course it didn't go that way, his response was "yeah me." 

I didn't want to be heartless if he was serious and not respond, but I also know he has a flare for the dramatics. So I sent, "so you are texting from the grave?"

There were a couple more exchanges, he didn't say what he meant by that and just said good night a let it go.

That was almost two months ago now.  I know I can't allow myself to be involved with the insanity of his life.  I am sightly concerned, but for me to expose myself any more would be insane on my part, right?

Sincerely,
Pharoah